To be honest.

Over the past few weeks, i came about knowing certain things that really upset my heart :(

One after another, they surprised me.

I no longer was able to pretend that everything was fine, i avoided.

and then, i felt stupid.

Am i that bad a judge of character? Am i the one who's being ridiculous?

It was the whole L-drama all over again. I knew it, he knew it.

It hurt. And i begin to wonder if i was ever someone else's wrong horse.

Surely, i was. At one point of my life - i am only human.

..I'm truly sorry if i was a wrong horse you once bet on.

On a frivolous note; April was brilliantly amazing :) Well, at least the end of April was! It was a beautiful day (month) =) All the emotions, all the sorrows, all the hard work - it was well worth it. Thank you Lord for such a wonderful year in Starkville. Thank you for sending beautiful horses my way, Father.

I'll see you back home soon. :)

just 14 more days, Ma.

Burden lifted.

I woke up this morning thinking it was just going to be another regular day.

Never did i imagine this day would ever happen (in my lifetime), let alone it being today.

Such liberation, i felt today.

It was an amazing day :D Truly.

I thank God for sending marvelous people and placing them strategically around me.

For moms who would give me a timely well-deserved bout of scolding.

For precious ones who would say "I told you so" right to my face.

For wonderful colleagues who wouldn't let me make the same mistakes as they did.

Mississippi is indeed where i was placed for a purpose.

Snowed in, :)

I don't hate you but i wish you didn't have to come by so often, Mondays.

I did what Calvin would do, build a (single) mini snowman army :D

It was such a beautiful sight to wake up to this morning!

You constantly amaze me.

Today, is the day i decide to learn to love You so much once again.

..Show me how to love like You have loved me.

And for the 29th time, Blessed Birthday favorite one ♥

I pray that you continue to grow into a man after God's own heart!

Remember, Psalm 55:22.

Cast your burden on the LORD,

and He shall sustain you;

He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.

PS. When you find yourself listening to this over and over again, you know you're missing home more than quite abit!

Ready, or not.

Spring is here.

and I'll have to brace myself and survive it.

It's about an equal mixture of nervousness and excitement.

I do look forward to an amazing Spring semester and to end my first year with a glorious note :D

Also, knowing that students truly enjoyed your lecture and you being their TA,

never fails to brighten your day.

To many more bright&shiny days, cheerio!

Note to self: Do stay sane, Oh and do try to eliminate procrastination. *wink.

get.your.ducks.in.a.row.pronto!

White Christmas.

..*tip tap* i thought i heard snow falling in my sleep. Its Mississippi i am at right now, i remembered - i brushed that thought away and went back to zzzland.

6:30AM - Tiff's mom woke us up; "Its snowing" says she!

Best (and first) WHITE Christmas ever =) Waking up to snow falling from the Heavens Christmas morning was just picture perfect. Lovely. Stunning. Amazing.

It was a magical Christmas i had this year, with the Woodcocks - truly a wonderful family!

I didn't think i would have survived this Christmas, but i did very well i must say :)

I am actually very excited to hear all about your first Christmas in Heaven, papi. I am equally as curious about your "day to day" activities up there.

Wish we could trade stories ..like now would be fantastic?!

But i guess i'll wait, till we meet again in the Heavens.

..you'll always remain as my special favoritest man in my whole wide world, papi. Love you.

ps. as much as i truly enjoyed snow falling on Christmas morning, part of me wished i was home with the family. Love you all bunches, see you in 5 months :)

Blessed Christmas :)

*sings* Hang a shining star upon the highest bough. And have yourself a merry little Christmas now :)

I ♥ Christmas, alot! it is my second favorite day of the year (after a certain day in April) =)

This year however, had a slightly different kindda Christmas spirit build up. I wouldn't say it was a lousy month but it definitely was an intense month for me. :S December was beyond overwhelming, much. It was pretty insane, mainly mentally. Haha! (again, oblivious to the world)

I can't say i'm glad December is almost over; yet i can't sincerely rejoice the coming of a new year! Didn't they say; a new year marks a new beginning? still, i can't help but wonder if this is a new beginning i am prepared to embrace? *hmm* (without asking why?)

Well, its Christmas! So, in lights of the spirit of giving =) I'll like to extend the invitation of a virtual hug to (almost) everyone out there! (huggg) May your Christmas season be filled with joy and gladness. Let us give thanks and be grateful for what He has brought us through and is about to bring us :)

A toast! *cheerio* to the one and only ♥ Beyond Awesome Father =)

The end of the year marks a period of reflection, thanksgiving and forgiveness! Pause.LookBack.Reflect.SeekForgiveness.Forgive.
Then; together we will soldier on, my fellow comrades! Take heart, ♥

Vietnam was exciting :) I am grateful for family vacations, it certainly brought about merry and joy =) I certainly have amazing people in my life, and i have The Father to thank for that :)

(a preview of Vietnam, i just spend four hours posting pictures on Facebook! Haha. From the selection process to captioning (almost) all the cherished captured moments :p)

It was truly a beautiful day =) along with amazing people, it made it even better ;) ♥

i wonder when will i see you again.

It was a beautiful day :)

A wise friend once told me, you do not wake up wondering, if today is a beautiful day. Instead, you wake up proclaiming "Today shall be a beautiful day!" =) For even David proclaimed in Psalms 118:24
This is the day which the LORD has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.

It actually works; for i practice this proclamation and exclamation rather often :)

That wise friend; is none other than the sister i never had, my dearest Phooi Wah Khoo. I am truly thankful our path crossed here during our earthly mission; for i believe not in coincidence. You are definitely more than a friend to me, and for that i am extremely thankful to the Father ;) Phooi Wah Khoo, i miss you muchh! Love you even moree ;)

One fine Sunday morning (sometime last year), she texted me. Read Psalms 121.

Psalms 121; the words of which i hold onto dearly.
I will lift up my eyes to the hills -
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.

He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade at your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.

The LORD shall perserve you from all evil,
He shall preserve your soul.
The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.

From a person who totally adores sleep, takes 7 hour naps (after a tennis lesson) and then turned nocturnal for she dislikes the sunlight much; so YES this Psalm does mean much to her. A Father who watches over her and does not slumber nor sleep; a Father who shades her from the sunlight! :) Isn't that just amazing? =) Its more than any girl can ask for.

PS. I was waiting for this weekend to come; for the sisters were scheduled for a home visit. I thought, finally a Tan family reunion. Ha! Guess what? They abandoned me; literally. Headed out with their friends instead :( Dad told me, your sisters are all grown up now. I guess so eh? When Beanie said she was going out today, Cia didn't seem too happy! Tapi, she herself did the same. Ehh. Who is left to talk to the eldest sister?

It was a beautiful day, indeed.

Take care now, you. For i now know it unrealistic. :(

Ahh, the smell of new tennis balls =)

I have a list of impending hobbies; and tennis has been sitting right on top of that list for some time now ;p I have been wanting to pick up that sport for the longest time, but i guess i lack much determination. You know how it is right? The all talk and no do? ;p

Lo and behold, i can finally strike that intended hobby off my list! Wooahh. Uncle Viet came along this morning, picked out a tennis racquet for me; it was a wise idea bringing him along for i would be lost amongst all those tennis jargon! Tension, 55? 11.3oz vs. 8.8oz? Hmm. (i know what they say, your first one shouldn't be expensive since i'll be meeting the ground more often than the neon ball! Haha.) But if only you knew Uncle Viet, then again i'm not complaining. The racquet is pretty ;p

I now have an exceedingly cool Wilson tennis racquet, i call my own! Wheee =) ohh, and not forgetting them new tennis balls! (do people end up sniffing tennis balls? haha. they do smell pretty good, ;p). I still don't quite know how to use it yet, and am pretty nervous since i have relatively weak arms, haha! We will soon find out how tennisly inclined i am ;p I'm as nervous as i am excited. Hahaha!

I for one, hated sweaty sports; i used to say never would i ever start running. I hated to sweat! Ergo, swimming was the only acceptable sport, and that's only because i'll be too drenched to even notice any perspiration. Haha. People do change eh? Right now, i'm proud to say, this hatred does not stand, no more. :) Point of clarification, it's not like i suddenly love sweating, its just no longer an issue to me. Lol.

I am still going for my evening runs every other day, if not daily! :) Most of the credit should go to LeeeshCIA (how are you liking your new name? although its kindda silly to have a nickname thats much longer than your name eh? hehe.). She kindda coerced me (respectfully) and i responded well. LOL.

It all started one fine evening at JP, Lion City. We made a slight detour before heading to NTUC. Haha. There, the investment of the year laid. Waiting for me. :) Presenting my Gaia™!

Columbia Gaia™
British Tan/Sunlit (with a hint of mustard yellow :p)
Spring 2009

This pair is definitely well worth the money :) and she's really pretty, isn't she?!

"Congratulations, you have a new career!" Says Uncle Viet. I sure hope this one lasts. ;)

*Cheerio to the begining of a real hobby! (impending hobby, no more :)) Woot! and a healthier lifestyle for me.
.. and here's another toast to no deteriorating mucles. Yeay me! =)

A run scheduled at 6:15pm later, with the father :) and my first tennis lesson scheduled at 7am tomorrow morning! Whhee. Waking up early, is going to be my greatest challenge. =) I do not function well in the day, for i am nocturnal. Ahh, the things i do for you, my dear Willy. Haha!

hey you, i hope you're doing great today! :)