I plead.

I feel like a fraud.

I hate to shortchange people of me,

yet deep down it hurts to pretend or conveniently forget the reality.

I need you to breathe for me,

please.

I plead for your life,

but i need you to fight as hard as you can.

I love you, so much.

The going gets tough.

I hear,
they say you need to get worst before you even begin to get better.

I wish,
the journey isn't that tough to fight.

I hope,
you persevere on no matter what.

I will be,
right behind you. always.
because you mean the world to me.

Fight a good fight,
Finish the race,
Keep the faith.
2 Timothy 4:7

I truly believe.

and even my bones concur.

:)

Dear Lord,
I surrender him to You.

May Your strength and mercies,
renew at the every break of dawn.

Walk with him.
Dream with him.
Conquer with him.

In Your precious name,
Amen

This task before me may seem unclear,
But it, my maker holds.
Bebo Norman's The Hammer Holds

I walk alone.

You may sit awhile with me.
You may pray along with me.
You may hope together with me.
You may believe for me.

But.
Ultimately, i still walk alone.
With only God by my side,
..and it is all that i ever needed.

Leaving home.

did not feel this real.
..not till yesterday.

It has always felt so far and foreign,
until it hits close to home. literally.

His grace is sufficient,
always has been and always will be.
(AMEN)

Must love dogs.

It broke my heart.
To see that many dogs roaming the vicinity of Mouth Kinabalu, Sabah.
To know i wouldn't be able to fend them all.

How do i take care of all the dogs in the world, Cia?
I hear myself ask.

The only comfort was,
they weren't holding their weight on only three limbs, neither were they abused in any way.

At least, they had compassion unlike my stupid neighbors.

I whisper a prayer as i pass each of them.

Surely i'm going to miss my puppies dearly when i leave. :(

*Dear future husband, you must love dogs.

41 sunsets.

Now that feels too close for comfort.

Though,
I may need more time.
who doesn't, hey?

Still,
I look forward to you, day 42.

I am more than trilled. excited. anxious. nervous.
anticipating beyond this mind's capability.

PS. I've never really liked you in the past, but i've decided i would this year.
Hello, beautiful June! Fill me up with amazing people encounters, will ya? :)