Leaving home.

did not feel this real.
..not till yesterday.

It has always felt so far and foreign,
until it hits close to home. literally.

His grace is sufficient,
always has been and always will be.
(AMEN)

Must love dogs.

It broke my heart.
To see that many dogs roaming the vicinity of Mouth Kinabalu, Sabah.
To know i wouldn't be able to fend them all.

How do i take care of all the dogs in the world, Cia?
I hear myself ask.

The only comfort was,
they weren't holding their weight on only three limbs, neither were they abused in any way.

At least, they had compassion unlike my stupid neighbors.

I whisper a prayer as i pass each of them.

Surely i'm going to miss my puppies dearly when i leave. :(

*Dear future husband, you must love dogs.

41 sunsets.

Now that feels too close for comfort.

Though,
I may need more time.
who doesn't, hey?

Still,
I look forward to you, day 42.

I am more than trilled. excited. anxious. nervous.
anticipating beyond this mind's capability.

PS. I've never really liked you in the past, but i've decided i would this year.
Hello, beautiful June! Fill me up with amazing people encounters, will ya? :)

Lord, lord.

"Why do you call me Lord?

When you won't even do what I ask."

Adapted from.
onetimeblind's Lord, lord.

Perfecto.

His timing is beyond perfect.

All that is needed of us, is to.
Wait patiently for it.
Be open to it.
Brace yourself for it.

the,
who would (ever) have thought moments.

Who would have thought,
I'd be spending the rest of my twenties back at school.
Cognitive Science. PhD. Mississippi.
its like a dream come true.

I would never have thought.

Amazing, He is indeed.

I love Him so much more, =)
He never cease to amaze me with His enchanting surprises.
♥

Closer, yet farther.

As i feel the void between us.
I long for, when i was much closer to You.

And as i attempt in reaching out again for You,
You seem even farther away.

Have i slid that much a distance?

I hate that i need constant reminder to be aware of You.
Consciously asking myself to know You are here.

Why hasn't it be a reflex already?

Shame on me.

A succinct moment.

I was never trained to be succinct with words.
I grew to love how words can convey such specific emotions and thoughts perfect for the moment.

This entry isn't about words, but how concise my present moment is about.

Many has remarked on how brave i am to embark toward my next destination in life.
Most are shocked to find out i know no one in that relatively foreign land i'm preparing to set foot on.

They see it as, i'll be all alone (thousands of) miles away from home.
I see it as, I am never alone. He has gone before me and is going with me.

I can argue that reality hasn't quite set in yet,
but i can't deny how at peace i am about this next (new) beginning i'm about to play out.
It will be a (new) beginning, literally. I have always wondered what it would be like living in a far far away land where no one knows me. Guess what? i get to find out myself :D

This moment is beyond words.
I am beyond ecstatic.
Rapturous delight, may do it justice.